"The Struggle Is Real!" For the youngins, I'm sure you've heard that term before. My whole school is probably feeling that anxiety "to be the best" and we are all in our own terms struggling to get there. College, what a competitive place to be! It truly is bitter sweet.
In a way I'm really just enjoying the moment, no matter how much work we have to do or how much pressures we have on our shoulders, I'm glad that I'm experiencing it all.
In my head I'm flashing into the future thinking back to today realizing that I'm so thankful to have met all the inspiring people that has affected me.
Well, its time for me to get back to work... My love goes out to all of you!
-Jaqueline Hazel. A B.
I've been living in Paris for about a month now! So much growth has happened from these past few weeks. living on my "own" for the first time truly helps me understand myself by comparing and contrasting the new surrounding environment. It gives me a better understanding of who I want to be and who Iam truly. I love it here, I love my school. Comfortability and a new routine is beginning to set in... Even though I think about family quite often, my work always puts me back into the "now".
Work tenacity.....Ive realized so much about my work effort and how much I'm dedicating myself to my goals. I can't believe I'm coming face to face with myself through these experimental obstacles. The levels of realization in each person might be different, so I feel as though this profound insight cant be explained, but obtained mostly through experience. I'm just realizing that I learn more through experiences than through imaginative/logic thinking. Either way, I just want to continue growing, to build up my skills, improve on the parts of me that is weak and to reach my life goals. simple?
its 12:56am and im sleep typing.... I'll read over this in the morning. But for now, bonsoir and have an inspiring night.
I've come to realize that movies are a familiar yet distant mirror of our world. Its always about good vs evil, right and wrong, questions and or answers.. In our world monsters do exist, just hidden in a different form; masked in our insecurities, hatred and fear. But no matter what, there's always you and I fighting. Losing and winning.
That's how I feel lately, caught in a battle. A test after another. A pass or a fail. I have to face the fact that our world is not equal. There's always both sides of the story.
I guess you and I are going to have to pick a side... and I'm about to choose mine.
good luck to you and good luck to me.
I'm having trouble sleeping lately. The anticipation is killing me! I really want to find out if I won that scholarship...just three more days until I find out! Oh please lord, help me win this one...
Turns out I didn't win it, but I'm pretty happy that I made it to the top 20 :)
Maybe I'll participate again next year.
I finally got to show my two piece collection called "Duality" at the Women's Museum in Liberty station! Duality is essentially two opposing forces such as good bad, right and wrong. I focused my collection around the word "duality" because I wanted to bring strength to those who often are ambivalent about life changing opportunities. This collection was inspired by my own inner battle. I've always had a hard time with my emotions and decisions about my future and life path. It was only recently that I've discovered a voice within. Because of this, I hope to inspire and bring joy to others as much as my love ones have brought joy into my life. -jaque
It was unbelievable. I couldn't believe that I got accepted into Parsons The New School For Design in Paris! No wonder "college acceptance letters" always seem to weave themselves into movies. Realizing you got into one of your dream schools is unexplainable! From excitement to dancing to crying to wondering if this is real. Its just been an emotional roller coaster!!! I will be going there for four years! so excited!...I think the hardest part would be parting with my family, but I am brave because I know it will only bring growth. I love you all.
Wish me luck !
Doing what you want can be difficult, there are people, time, other forces and yourself that could inhibit you from your goals. But there are also loved ones, moments, opportunities and your will that can really push you forward.
I need to stay thankful because what happens next can really change my life... please Angels, keep fighting for me.
Ok, I'm a bit excited to see where I'm going to end up. Its application time for colleges and I'm thinking about going to several top fashion schools of the world. Central Saint Martins (London) and Parsons School For Design is on my priority list for fashion design, then Fashion Institute of Technology and San Francisco's Art Academy. uggghh! The anticipation is so thrilling! Right now I'm in the process of building up my portfolio and just overall improving my skills. I have another show coming up this spring of 2015 and I have a feeling that its going to be wonderful. Well besides the art, I've realized that I need more than talent to feel like I have the whole package. This semester I've finally signed up for a speech class which will help greatly with public speaking. I really want to be a better advocate for sustainability in the fashion community or even in other causes for self sustainability. Well I've got to get going.. wish me luck!
Its one of those forks in the road again that's going to change my direction in life. Its time for me to choose what school to transfer to. I think I have my mind set up on Long Beach, its not too far from family where I'll get homesick... its beautiful there and I feel like I'll fit right in.
Currently I am living in Sunny San Diego again with my cousin. I think we're going to create some amazing art while I'm here. I feel the creativity flowing through me again and there's some projects heading my way. Excited for sure about our new group.
Well wish me luck and love to all
I don't even know where to start with my process of becoming a successful designer. All I know is to just keep at it. So far I've been presented with opportunities left and right. I have a shoe competition to attend to, clothing design pieces that needs to be made this month for a fashion show, and photo shoots every couple weeks and plus videos to make! The pressure is definitely on! I feel so hyper that I'm literally shaking with excitement. Wish me luck!
with much love,